sorry, feeling a bit dizzy after seeing too much of the guy below...
i shall do my essay plan tomorrow .promise . BX

speeaking of which, holy mother, if i went home and see the following on my bed using my lap top, i'll most pobably die of cardiac arrest on the spot LOL.
ITS LIKE GOING HOME AND SEEING RONALDINHO AND KAKA JUGGLING THE BALL AMONG THEMSELVES IN MY VERY SMALL LIVING ROOM.

Labels: boys over flowers, soccer

i absolutely cannot afford to wak up at 1pm tomorrow again! ugh...
i have to make myself wake up at 9... watch me.

Labels: homework

Labels: alone, bicycle trip, husky, med school, MOS, onigiri, photo mosaic, soccer

Smoking should be banned totally for the good of all. Discuss.

sian...
haha
ok sorry was just entertaining myself.
man this is way harder than i thought it would be...
as in not the essay question but more on the fact that i am doing something out of my own accord.

When lighted, wisps of white fumes emerge from the glowing orange tip of the cigarette. These fumes, along with the smoke that a smoker exhales carry with them toxic chemical substances that are detrimental to the health of those who inhale them --- passive smoking. The cigarette itself contains tar and nicotine --- carcinogens which cripple the smoker's respiratory system over prolonged and excessive usage. Judging from the extent to which smoking harms people's health, banning smoking would definitely be beneficial to most people, that is, except the smokers themselves. Banning smoking entirely would result in the cigarette market being completely extinct, thereby perishing all the profits that have been reaped from this business. Banning smoking totally might not necessarily benefit everyone.

Cigarette smoke is a cocktail of more than four thousand chemicals. The hazardous effects of cigarette smoke on the body are widespread. While a smoker is harming his or her own body, secondhand smoke, smoke exhaled from the smoker and smoke emitted from the cigarette, when inhaled, increases a person's risk of contracting respiratory infections, cancer and heart disease. Smoking is no longer a personal affair, it is threatening the health of non-smokers as well. It is now an issue of morality, of whether the act of obtaining pleasure from smoking at the expense of someone else's physical well-being is indeed justifiable. Therefore, it is easily concluded that banning of smoking will indubitably be for the good of all non-smokers.

-smokers themselves will be severely affected
-withdrawal symptoms/ rehab

-global economy might be affected

-rather impossible to ban smoking entirely
-corruption and black markets

-we have tried;
-government is already advocating that smoking is bad for health
eg. health textbooks depict smoking as damn bad lol, anti-smoking campaigns and advertisements.
-government attempting to control effects of passive smoking
eg. banning smoking at certain crowded public places by law.
-availability of help rendered to smokers to aid them in the quitting process.
-devices which help reduce the percentage of toxic substances entering the smoker's body when smoking are available in pharmacies.
-prices of cigarettes have been raised but addicts refuse to budge.
-sad case: despite all these, there are still a lot of smokers.

-banning smoking might actually cause more problems.
-if so much has already been done to discourage smoking and yet the results are not satisfying, its a sign that banning smoking totally might not work out.
-the war against smoking is not ending anytime soon man.
-have to be resilient

bet there is a lot of mistakes here and there.i took examples of illnesses from the internet.
anyway i dont know if it is out of point
to my ghost readers: please give me advice on how to expand if you have any? or correct my format and structure thanks man
i dont really know how to write more in the first body paragraph





watched ten promises to my dog
You may have friends and school, but i only have you.

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walao sia.
i miss boys over flowers!
today we played soccer. havent touched the ball in eleven days. k i did . at home. but like no kick leh.
HAHA
erhem starting on my essay outline!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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whoa its 2am now haha
i have decided that every friday wef today, i will fish out an essay question and write the opening paragraph and first body paragraph for it here.
gonna delete word challenge and chain reaction now. HAHA

Labels: essay outline, facebook

today we went out to celebrate piangs's birthday.
fun man lol
recently i like to talk less and just enjoy the company of my friends.
and i no longer feel awkward or uncomfortable about that silence
kinda feel that talking is quite tiring sometimes
haha

Labels: birthdays, introvert me

saw the video on piangs's blog
people look best when theyre doing something they enjoy doing.
you can literally see happiness spilling out from the people in the video man

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haha dhiya smsed me telling me that the korean drama rocked .
made me laugh like an idiot after reading that message.
todays 'joke' of the day:
niang: c'mon la, my tagboard is like... empty/quiet (whatever i forgot)
me: eh walao! mine is like piangs and my personal space HAHAHAHAHAHA

actually not very funny

anw nationals are.
don't wanna use that word but yeah its over.
i have a lot to say but i guess im just too lazy and i cant really express myself very well. ok im just lazy.
i had a loooong chat with sihui at the grandstand when it rained, reminiscing about the past.
realised that we really went through a lot,
from yewtee to kovan to sengkang.
and my own training at farrer park.
shams intensive fitness trainings.
the day khoo gave us our positions.

and that night i received 2 messages that melted my heart
"Hey emi, thanks for cheering me up tdy! I felt so touched when you told me.................................................................................(lazy to type plus figured i shouldnt type so much)...Love you a gazillion stars in the night! Hope you'll hv a gd rest tonight!"
"Its ok so happy to hear that you scored a goal i hope this spurs you on to continue to play without fear and with lots more confidence happy for you :) "

and that night i took a looong bus ride home. alone. felt damn good.
stopped by my gonggong and mamas house but didn't go in because they are already dead...

i believe that when you lose some, you gain some as well.
and because i have gained, the pain of losing seems to have been compensated for.
though not fully, i did learn quite a bit.
about friendship, love and life.





sometimes when i close my eyes, that scene just kept replaying through my mind.
it wasn't a great goal, i know, but its a very special goal to me.
now i know what he meant when he replied, "it was instinct, really..."
im just damn glad i managed to score that one goal for the team.
i believe anyone couldve done it
but still
it meant the world to me.
maybe because i had a hard fall this season.
when i walked back for the kick-off, my entire mind was flooded with ryan giggs and that goal he scored against arsenal long ago.
that video. thank god i found it.
i think this is the closure i needed.

Labels: boys over flowers, laugh like a piece of shit, soccer

graduation
sucks so much.
it makes you feel empty.

Labels: soccer

just random thoughts:
i don't know you anymore.
the only things that will stay with me forever are a dog's love and the love for a dog.
as the days go by, the more i want time to stop, the more suppressed i feel by each moment, the more defeated i feel



on tuesday, the day i dread would come
i will not let negative thoughts affect my performance.
i will not let my team down
i will not disgrace the sport.
i will be a man
i will carry and support my team
i will see the beauty in soccer.
i will be incredible.
we will be incredible.

today i answered a question in which ive always had many answers to.
why am i training so hard?
it suddenly dawned on me that more importantly, it was because i wanted to be the best left winger i can be for the team.
very simple, very ordinary, nothing special. but i guess that was what was driving me forward, besides my love for the sport.

like what ryan giggs said when he played his last international match,
"I hope this match will never end...",
i hope this match will never end.






really hate to think of what to do after tuesday.

Labels: friends, pepper, soccer

well i guess its true, that i need to feel useful to be happy.
k i think theres more to it than just that.

Labels: friends, soccer

today this could be, the greatest day of our lives.
today this could be, the greatest day of our lives.
and the world comes alive.
and the world comes alive.

this sucks.
they say sometimes you have to be lost to find yourself.
but wow, ive been lost for too damn bloody long.
great things have happened today,
like ms chua telling me she called my mom with good news
like us winning 1-0.
but why dammit why dont i feel a tinge of happiness?
when its time to be with the team, i actually felt like being alone.
i think i kinda figured out the reason im feeling this way.
yes, according to shiyun, i seem to be shutting myself out of many things.
ever since last year.
i wonder what can make me open up again.
when i join soccer in uni, i wont commit these fatal mistakes again.
holy shit, i think im suffering from soccer depression, i actually ah nvm.
wow this sucks. this sucks.

3 things to work on in a week:
1. dribbling
2. fitness fuck la!
3. corners

p.s
sorry yitong sihui and maybe van for that fucked up attitude after the match















may have fallen, but we'll be back.

i die after next week.

Labels: apologies, soccer

grr... hate myself for feeling that way.
how shallow can i get?

Labels: friends, soccer

somewhat inspired by sihui's
"if i'm a warrior, i would be the first to die " post.

so i'm going to do it AFTER i complete some homework.
this will be my motivation.
so stay tuned, my ghost reader.

Labels: homework, soccer

on a brighter note, my corner kicks are getting better.
the feeling came this week on sunday morning.
i even cabbed to school just so i would have some time alone, just me and soccer.
man it was worth it.
when i saw the ball sail through the air after months of seeing grounders, it was wow, pure joy.

this just further reinstates kaka's words in that video...
"... if you keep working hard, one day you will see the results of your efforts..."
i have never in my life seen myself do a decent (by my own standards) corner. and no matter how hard i practise, with the green fence, with the side of the net, with yitong, with sihui, i could never seem to get it right.
now i have to practise more to eradicate my inconsistency.
come to think of it, after the last match, training would make me feel guilty, and all thats left to do is to gather and play small-sided games.
not much on improving technique.

closure.
is this what we all need?
well, i could wait another two years to graduate from nj soccer.
wish i had gone to njip, but then again, im not sure if i wouldve joined soccer then because it was during sec 4 that my love for soccer was rekindled.
i guess everything happens for a reason.















i did it.





P.S. todays training wasnt exactly good for me though.

Labels: graduation, soccer

one of the few times a post is not related to soccer,

the truth hurts.

Labels: friends

You light the skies, up above me
A star, so bright, you blind me, yeah
Don’t close your eyes
Don’t fade away, don’t fade away

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

If walls break down, I will comfort you
If angels cry, oh I’ll be there for you
You've saved my soul
Don’t leave me now, don’t leave me now

Oh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

Ooooooooh
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you

Ooooooooh

Yeah you and me we can ride on a star
If you stay with me girl
We can rule the world
Yeah you and me, we can light up the sky
If you stay by my side
We can rule the world

All the stars are coming out tonight
They’re lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you

All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you, for you
All the stars, are coming out tonight
They're lighting up the sky tonight
For you,for you

zzz. lyrics damn simple, but i dont know why im in love with this song.
seldom post lyrics. and when i do, it means something. zzzzzzzzzz

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Ah. i can' believe i'm feeling this.

i think i've been waiting too much for things to happen to me that ive lost too much.
i shouldve agreed
but given the coward that i am, bet that if i could turn the wheel of time, i would say no again.
ah, but i bet this feeling will just fade away as always.
actually i think its hurting more because on top of all the shit ive been encountering the past 3 weeks or so, reality(or is it?) hits me hard in the face.

wow say hi to the failure on and off the field.
did you give up?
MAN i cant believe im saying all this shit, i guess im human after all.
i guess ive been hiding too much that the ugliness, it's all showing now.
having said this, you might expect me to do something about my situation, but guess what? i wont.
i'll just wait and wait and wait, until it all fades away.

argh, just forget i said this,.

Labels: soccer