just random thoughts:
i don't know you anymore.
the only things that will stay with me forever are a dog's love and the love for a dog.
as the days go by, the more i want time to stop, the more suppressed i feel by each moment, the more defeated i feel



on tuesday, the day i dread would come
i will not let negative thoughts affect my performance.
i will not let my team down
i will not disgrace the sport.
i will be a man
i will carry and support my team
i will see the beauty in soccer.
i will be incredible.
we will be incredible.

today i answered a question in which ive always had many answers to.
why am i training so hard?
it suddenly dawned on me that more importantly, it was because i wanted to be the best left winger i can be for the team.
very simple, very ordinary, nothing special. but i guess that was what was driving me forward, besides my love for the sport.

like what ryan giggs said when he played his last international match,
"I hope this match will never end...",
i hope this match will never end.






really hate to think of what to do after tuesday.

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