haha dhiya smsed me telling me that the korean drama rocked .
made me laugh like an idiot after reading that message.
todays 'joke' of the day:
niang: c'mon la, my tagboard is like... empty/quiet (whatever i forgot)
me: eh walao! mine is like piangs and my personal space HAHAHAHAHAHA

actually not very funny

anw nationals are.
don't wanna use that word but yeah its over.
i have a lot to say but i guess im just too lazy and i cant really express myself very well. ok im just lazy.
i had a loooong chat with sihui at the grandstand when it rained, reminiscing about the past.
realised that we really went through a lot,
from yewtee to kovan to sengkang.
and my own training at farrer park.
shams intensive fitness trainings.
the day khoo gave us our positions.

and that night i received 2 messages that melted my heart
"Hey emi, thanks for cheering me up tdy! I felt so touched when you told me.................................................................................(lazy to type plus figured i shouldnt type so much)...Love you a gazillion stars in the night! Hope you'll hv a gd rest tonight!"
"Its ok so happy to hear that you scored a goal i hope this spurs you on to continue to play without fear and with lots more confidence happy for you :) "

and that night i took a looong bus ride home. alone. felt damn good.
stopped by my gonggong and mamas house but didn't go in because they are already dead...

i believe that when you lose some, you gain some as well.
and because i have gained, the pain of losing seems to have been compensated for.
though not fully, i did learn quite a bit.
about friendship, love and life.





sometimes when i close my eyes, that scene just kept replaying through my mind.
it wasn't a great goal, i know, but its a very special goal to me.
now i know what he meant when he replied, "it was instinct, really..."
im just damn glad i managed to score that one goal for the team.
i believe anyone couldve done it
but still
it meant the world to me.
maybe because i had a hard fall this season.
when i walked back for the kick-off, my entire mind was flooded with ryan giggs and that goal he scored against arsenal long ago.
that video. thank god i found it.
i think this is the closure i needed.

Labels: boys over flowers, laugh like a piece of shit, soccer