Ah. i can' believe i'm feeling this.

i think i've been waiting too much for things to happen to me that ive lost too much.
i shouldve agreed
but given the coward that i am, bet that if i could turn the wheel of time, i would say no again.
ah, but i bet this feeling will just fade away as always.
actually i think its hurting more because on top of all the shit ive been encountering the past 3 weeks or so, reality(or is it?) hits me hard in the face.

wow say hi to the failure on and off the field.
did you give up?
MAN i cant believe im saying all this shit, i guess im human after all.
i guess ive been hiding too much that the ugliness, it's all showing now.
having said this, you might expect me to do something about my situation, but guess what? i wont.
i'll just wait and wait and wait, until it all fades away.

argh, just forget i said this,.

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