Thursday, October 15, 2009 10:20 PM hmm, just read lizhu's blog. which reminded me of the number of times i have cried in njc or for something in njc. a quick scan of my highly developed brain which boasts an IQ of 222 has revealed that i have cried 3 times thus far. not in chronological order: ok i realise its 4. ok 5! but the ones which were in public are 1. after the sa match. for that, i really broke down. 2. in front of ms chua outside my classroom. she was lecturing me. man, i was like a burst-open floodgate. 3. crap i forgot ugh. oh, i remember, it was because of some soccer matter. this was was really in public, i revealed my pent-up emotions to someone i didn't think would care that much. as for 4,5 and 6 it was in secret. all related to soccer. for one, i buried my face in my shirt and my eyes just bled water. shan't elaborate on this one. for the other 2, it was after a match. one was after the 5-aside street soccer match one was after the friendly match against HC. i vividly remember trampling my arm band violently in a fit of anger.(at my incapability) yep thats it. so erm, would i be able to hold back my tears tomorrow? or, would there even be tears to hold back? ok in university, i god damned hope i pass the soccer trials and have soccer as my CCA again and then, i will rebuild my character. and i will learn to play more beautifully. and i will cross the ball SUCCESSFULLY. and i will execute dribbles like its second nature. and i will dodge defenders with great ease. i will be so quick on my feet that i torture my defenders during training sessions HAHA like Giggs! i will remembered for how i play. i will be remembered for who i am. on and off the field. as for my dream, i am NEVER giving up. so don't tell me what i should be or what i should not be. i have my own moral values. and what i deem as my raison d'etre. ok now you can see why i got a D for gp. i have shit structure, my points don't link up and i write out of point. i failed my essay because i created a question instead of picking one. |
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