yep, i just did.
too bad you can't smell it.
pity. tsk tsk.


a song i cant get out out of my head at the moment.
it's one of the soundtracks of a drama.



am currently following this drama titled "you're beautiful"
which is coincidentally, also our PW project name
HAHA
i think its the best k-drama ive watched so far.
ok ive only watched about 3 or 4 . haha
so here's a bold declaration:
it's better than BOF.
and here's an even bolder declaration: it's the best drama ive ever watched.
eh ive watched a lot of dramas if you include those cheesy taiwan idol dramas haha
anyway,
not to worry, this drama is currently airing, which means i only get to watch 2 episodes per week,
well, i should say it's my weekly escapade into another world.
yep,
and barring no surprise, i have been very unproductive over the weekends.
hence, ive decided to study at my favourite spot in school after tuition tomorrow till it gets dark .
yep, and im going to be doing econs and a whole lot of physics.
as for today, by hook or by crook, i shall complete my nyjc paper 2 and start on another school's paper.


today's consultation was fruitful.
so fruitful that mr goh and i ate apples. ROLF jkjk
omg that was a damn bad joke.
i also had the worst ever case of running nose today.
my nose ran even faster than usain bolt.
ok, anyway the fluid just couldn't stop flowing out of my nose.
it still is now.
i counted,
i consumed a total of 13 packets of 3-ply tissue.
i felt HORRIBLE.
i even had a headache too.
but thanks to zihans panadol flu max, i felt really alert later on.
the only (major) drawback was my nose didn't run any slower.
damn!
it was rather well-behaved in front of mr goh though,
and i enjoyed the 1.3333333333333333333h consultation thoroughly.
it was really useful.
and as usual like my first (accidental) consultation (because he mistook me as the other Emily in his class -.-),
he used a myriad of creative examples ranging from plucking lemongrass leaves to me being a winger and finally, to me quarreling with my boyfriend (and thinking of my boyfriend during the exam).
i like it that mr goh doesnt just throw me answers but prompts me until i get it.
i like it that he lowers his voice almost to that of a whisper because he does not want to disturb others.
i like it that he is extremely patient.
i like it that he gives his students hope.
i like it that he does not rush through the entire session even though i was only supposed to have a half hour slot.
i like it that he does not explain for the sake of it, he gives me the feeling that he genuinely wants to help.

ok fine, in general, mr goh may be my ideal teacher.
or perhaps it merely the nature of the subject.
shit don't tell me i'm unknowingly falling in love with economics?
ARRRR NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
jkjk i 'm not.
economics is just not the type of guy i go for.

after today, i actually felt confident of achieving an A for economics.
i still have a lot to work on,
but i think i'm getting closer.

sipei said her best friend's revision is almost complete.
and it really is almost.
hence i've decided to adopt the same method.
just keep practising and bit by bit, you wouldve realised that you've completed almost all of the prelim papers! wow
yeah so i'm going to do math every day
and for my next consultation,
i'm going to be ready with, hopefully, say, 6 case studies?
as for physics, i'll be ready with mcqs and p3 for my weekly fun session with sweatpants and mr lim ahaha
i'll NEVER forget those one-of a kind sounds he creates.
like 'DIAO!' when he switches the light on.
and 'ZAAAAAARR' when electricity passes through.

till next time,
bye man.
i'm going to get a haircut soon.
yes niang, i take back what i said today.
i am no longer using my room as a salon.
(according to my father)
One fine day:
in the morning, before leaving for school,
i happily trimmed the ends of my fringe.
in the afternoon, when i returned from school,
the very first thing he said was,
"today you open salon in your room again ah."
and i LMAO.

bye!


hmm, just read lizhu's blog.
which reminded me of the number of times i have cried in njc or for something in njc.
a quick scan of my highly developed brain which boasts an IQ of 222 has revealed that i have cried 3 times thus far.
not in chronological order:
ok i realise its 4.
ok 5!
but the ones which were in public are
1. after the sa match.
for that, i really broke down.
2. in front of ms chua outside my classroom.
she was lecturing me.
man, i was like a burst-open floodgate.
3. crap i forgot ugh.
oh, i remember, it was because of some soccer matter.
this was was really in public, i revealed my pent-up emotions to someone i didn't think would care that much.

as for 4,5 and 6 it was in secret.
all related to soccer.
for one, i buried my face in my shirt and my eyes just bled water.
shan't elaborate on this one.
for the other 2, it was after a match.
one was after the 5-aside street soccer match
one was after the friendly match against HC.
i vividly remember trampling my arm band violently in a fit of anger.(at my incapability)
yep thats it.

so erm, would i be able to hold back my tears tomorrow?
or, would there even be tears to hold back?


ok in university,
i god damned hope i pass the soccer trials and have soccer as my CCA again
and then, i will rebuild my character.
and i will learn to play more beautifully.
and i will cross the ball SUCCESSFULLY.
and i will execute dribbles like its second nature.
and i will dodge defenders with great ease.
i will be so quick on my feet that i torture my defenders during training sessions HAHA like Giggs!
i will remembered for how i play.
i will be remembered for who i am.
on and off the field.

as for my dream, i am NEVER giving up.
so don't tell me what i should be or what i should not be.
i have my own moral values.
and what i deem as my raison d'etre.


ok now you can see why i got a D for gp.
i have shit structure, my points don't link up and
i write out of point.
i failed my essay because i created a question instead of picking one.