omg.... i cant believe that ive been tricked twice in two weeks, you know those videos/games where halfway during the video/ game a scary face will pop up and a VERY loud and screechy scream sound will be played? dammit...
the firt one was this video.... showing a way through a maze or something.... then it happened. dammit,
the second oe just happened today. er... go check this out
http://www.winterrowd.com/bubblewrap/
if you want to scare yourself...

my volume was only half the full bar, but i think they purposely ampliied the sound ... hence it was rather loud...
ok my main point was, er much to my own surprise, i didnt scream or jerk back at the point where the monsters appeared on screen... i just felt my heart skip a beat.
and i apparently continued to stare/examine/attempt the uncover the photoshop secrets behind the monster face like 15 secs after the video/game ended.
ohman, i always thought i would like er either jump off my seat/push the table down/shit on the spot/shriek like shrek/exclaim 'AH!' off-key(or zao xia if you would understand)/accelerate away from the laptop/etc.
okay i somehow liked the way i reacted... haha skipping a heartbeat.
how much have i changed exactly?
did i mention that recently that i keep imagining myself hugging my dog and stroking him?damned it felt so real.


omy holy crap, i was reading my archives, and man, i think i talk like a man okay as in a guy... LOL
my language is so guyish...
thats not the point, i was reading up till july, and yo, check out my july 26th post, i realised that the nickname nengge actually already existed since then! lol, okay actually i came up with it the moment i heard wainengs name. LOL
good thing my blog has very very few visitors... lol...
nvm la hor, i dont feel guilty because im no gossiping or what...
today had class bbq, 08s21's very first outing... kind of successful, though with only twelve odd people, but seriousl it felt like there were twenty people to me! my lim mr leow and mr wong came woooooo
i think my lim is god damn lame but funny... he has this gift of being able to interact with anyone under the sun.
lol kind liked today... cycled off halfway to attempt to look for pepper amidst some bungalow infested area near pasir ris park but to no avail. recently i keep thinking of holding him in my arms and hugging him, like hes so near yet so far? hmmm dont know what it means...like what kind of hint is heaven dropping to me?
anw today was quite fun, just felt a wee bit emo before the bbq...
anw o our way to the pit
we saw this pretty long metal slide... i was damn excited man.been slide-deprived for too long so sikiat mark and i wen to try it... dont know why the other girls didnt want to try it... anw the slide was not slidey at all... we couldnt slide.. got stuck and had to use the railings to propel us forward, to think i was afraid that i would go too fast and slide off the slide...
and too think i carried my bag with me thinking that more mass more velocity........... holy crap... i realised that it should be more mass less velocity.... since the height is fixed. ahhhhhhhhh
crappeee nvm,,,
anw i ate like a piece of shat. kept eating LOUSY nuggets and LOUSY crabsticks.
felt kinda lonely recently.
kinda think s21 is very cute afterall.
kinda wish eli and leow would remain as our form teachers next year.
kinda like training with bball people.
kinda hate gym sessions cos im a weaktard.
kinda think i eat vey unhealthily.
kinda have to buy aiscs asap.
kinda realised i keep thinking of dskljlkkjdkldsm,zx this few days!


pepper somewhere out there in pasir ris youre thinking of me and blessing me right?
cos somewhere in yew tee, im thinking of you, missing you and wishing that you have all the best a dog can have. and that you are happy!


holy cow! i was so fortunate to get to try out the GPMG at ocs yesterday its a frigging general purpose machine gun! though it sounds pretty common owing to the word general..., it definitely felt like a special purpose machine gun to me... okay thats lame.
but wtf it was damn fun damn exciting
had the experience of a lifetime in just a few shots... damned will i remember that imapct aka 10000000N vibrational force exerted on my shoulder for life. a pity there was no picture to commemorate that moment.
really have to thank my friends for helping me volunteer......

and man, i am such a vulgar person, i accidentally said the entire f word during a slap jack game instead of "1". i should try to control myself. its not exactly pleasant to say the f word at least once every day.

i fell while trying to do a cryuff turn o the d ring when the ball when out... i fell flat on my ass.okay vulgarism strikes back... its quite painful, okay make that very, but for that instant only. anyway today i have a neckache. lol hurts when i bend or move my head, and i couldnt do the toe touch thingy during training today. hope itll be better tmr.

as for today, i somehow loved today!
1. shammy said he got us a coach i mean f that shit man! now the real training begins. i really doubt im up to it. nonetheless, im really grateful to shammy for that, from the bottom of my heart.
2. played bball with the bball girls after training! its like the classic example of noobs vs pros. the most important thing was that i finally felt the warmth of being in a soccer for the first time, it was the first time i felt that we were one family. one. even though the bball guys were around, it didnt feel very awkward or uncomfortable, it felt normal. bball people are nice. somehow it makes up for the disconnection i have with soccer guys.
i had a nice day.
so i thank the world for it
but pepper i love and miss you


got this quiz from niang who go it from moomoo

SEVEN THINGS THAT SCARE YOU
all kinds of worms or any creature that is worm-like
ghosts or rather lonely toilets...
losing someone/something very precious..sigh
fire, till now i have never lit a stove or a bunsen burner
sharks or sea urchins or some random sea creature in the sea
competition, as in races, i either crumble or do well
big groups of guys. lol really

SEVEN THINGS YOU LIKE THE MOST
pepper
my close friends
good food
physics
conducting surgery
soccer
running

SEVEN IMPORTANT THINGS IN YOUR ROOM(aka things i would take with me when my house if on fire)
laptop
the box 14 letters from my closest friends in rv
my bed(okay this is slightly difficult)
my money
myself
hmmm, kinda stuck
my entire shrine(as yitong calls it) of letters from friends, memorabilia, race tags and medals
my holy bed

SEVEN RANDOM FACTS ABOUT YOU
i always trip over those tiny humps along pathways and produce a very weird and unique sound in the process.(ask nuraz cos she is somehow always present when that happens)
i stone a lot i guess
when i go to chalets/hotels i always ask my partner to bathe with me or if she wouldnt, i would leave the door wide open because i am afraid
when i eat burgers, i eat the bread before the patty
i admire intelligent people and people with attitude
when i cry in the shower it means i am really upset about something
oyeah i sleep with my head at the end of my bed and my feet at the headboard.

SEVEN THINGS YOU PLAN TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE
meet pepper
be a successful plastic surgeon who has helped many with birth deformities
design an entire collection of clothes
make an impact on at least someone's life
play competitive soccer
find true love or rather let it find me(so that i can gladly accept the belief that true love does exist)
emerge top in a subject

SEVEN THINGS YOU CAN DO
try to find pepper
eat like a monster after training
laugh like a piece of shit
hmm.. fart silently?
mmm...stone
mmmmmmmmmmmmm... involuntarily slap my friends when i laugh?

SEVEN THINGS YOU CANNOT DO
get pepper back
play any musical instrument
read scores
light a stove
enter a forest alone
open my eyes underwater
touch type

SEVEN PEOPLE WHO MAKE YOU LAUGH
actually myself(because i think my jokes are quite funny)
liray
miamia
mohammed leena
niang
aman
piangs
yitong wth
audrey
sometimes vanessa and sihui
yyc
er sikiat?
xiaopeng...............
amandas form teacher

SEVEN THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST
shit/shat
the f word
sorrysorry
thanks
omg
what the hell
okay

SEVEN THINGS THAT ATTRACT YOU TO THE OPPOSITE SEX
sadly, good looks
sense of humour!
makes me feel comfortable
sporty
somehow i like those who talk to zero girls except me. lol
height
tanned skin?

SEVEN CELEBRITY CRUSHES
none... o yeah!
edison chen sadly
eddie peng
nicholas tse
shawn yue
most caucasian actors are heartthrobs.


my mom gave my dog away, on friday, when i was at queensway cutting the cards for the soccer booth for open day. she called and told me the man-who-lives-in-a-bungalow came to take him away, she also said pepper was very happy, wagging his tail like a piece of shit and all.
im sorry but i have to say this
fuck it.

well, i dont know where to start but, i just kept thinking of him.
i cant take this.seriously, apparently elsie ong doesnt allow me to visit him at his new home, which she claims is at pasir ris. how vague.
i find no reason to go home anymore. when im home, i feel very upset because everything reminds me of him


frankly i dont know why a mere 1.5 years would bring so much sadness,
the silence is deafening
home is empty

fuck man.

im going to fucking hell find out where the hell you are.
and elsie ong, you cut me deep on this one, though you have every reason to send him away and i cant blame you, i still blame you.

ok i just deleted the long letter i typed to my dog, i think theres no need for me to broadcast what i wanna say to him. god knows, i know and it doesnt matter if he doesnt know. ok it does.
and i space out more often.
k time to get some sleep , be forward looking em!


hello people, me is back. after being missing in action. okay dudes, this i gonna be a really long post, so im gonna go bathe before i glue my ass to the chair and type like a piece of shat. man, i think im a very vulgar person, rough and crude + damn weird, = difficult to find husband later on in life. anw
anyways ill go bathe. brb.

back. i shall number my points.

1.i got this from eq's blog like errr, a decade ago?
Pick your birth month
→ Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you
→ Bold the five-ten that best apply to you
→ Copy to your blog
→ Tag 10 people from your friends list lol
AUGUST: Loves to joke. Attractive. Suave and caring. Brave(okay this is just something i hope to be) and fearless. Firm and has leadership qualities. Knows how to console others. Too generous and egoistic. Takes high pride in oneself. Thirsty for praises. Extraordinary spirit. Easily angered. Angry when provoked. Easily jealous. Observant. Careful and cautious.(more like paranoid) Thinks quickly. Independent thoughts. Loves to lead and to be led. Loves to dream. Talented in the arts, music and defense. Sensitive but not petty. Poor resistance against illnesses. Learns to relax. Hasty and trusty. Romantic. Loving and caring. Loves to make friend

2. Mr sham took over soccer,
thats the best thing that ever happened to us i guess. frankly, when mskoh mentioned about having mr sham as a new tic, i wasnt expecting much, maybe cos im already numb to the somewhat weird system. but my first meeting with sham was definitely unforgettable. he strikes me as someone who is dedicated, who takes action, who is firm and straightforward, ... insanity you may say, but hes just a very holy teacher in charge to me. thinking of the past nine months we have (sort of) wasted training mostly by ourselves and haphazardly really made me treasure his efforts to salvage the shatty situation we are in now. in but a mere two weeks, i have already witnessed how he is the quintessence of the saying, "action speaks louder than words" man i feel as if im writing a freak ass testimonial. yeah i guess you get what i mean and how i feel. basically, im just god damn grateful to him. cant imagine what it wouldve been like if ...
nvm, i dont know the situation in its entirety, so shant draw any unsupported conclusions.
thank you mr sham, even though you may never see this, and even though youve only known us for barely two weeks.

3.yitong and leena
all of a sudden i thought of the two of them, the two who made my stay in soccer amazingly enjoyable. it may not be a mutual feeling nonetheless, i cant imagine how different it would be without these two very special friends. from "ping and pong" role-playing with yitong to muhammedding with nuraz, wow, the amount of fun and joy we shared was very heartwarming to me. come to think of it, there is seriously damn many(omg 'damn many'? what kind of shit english is this) wow i cant finish... shall continue tmr.
i keep navigating away from this page LOL