ello poeple, im finally updating.
shall start with my clean and green club.
HAHA
im going to wear it till i get caught or i get bored of it.

anyway todays soccer training was quite fun. apart from the fact that my thigh muscles are aching like pieces of shit thanks to mondays pe.
i finally realised it was mondays pe and not hockey!
we didnt stretch and we did very muscle-challenging exercises like being fake spiderman by crawling on the ground spidey way.
its looks easy but its actually,wow; apos.A Piece Of Shit.
as usual, i couldnt do most of the drills during training.
and as usual, i volunteered to be the defender.
mostly because its my favourite position, ever since i stopped having a penchant for being the goalie last year.(because i suck at it)
as you can see, i basically suck at many stuff.
life as a no-talent sucker hasnt been great. it hasnt been miserable either.
suckers just go do what they like, since they cant really do much.
anyway todays training was deeply satisfying because i scored the most x10 000 tyco goal in my entire life(not as if ive scored more than twenty nice goals in my life, unless you count the occasional throwing of rubbish into amandas house-dustbin)
wow i do speak like apos. ive actually compressed my swollen ego, reducing it to a mere piece of shit.
okay so the story goes like this,
the ball was hit out of the clump of people and myelin(sorry if is i spelt your name wrongly, but based on erhem my ever-so-broad knowledge, your name is pronounced as how the 'myelin' in myelin sheath is) and some others were chasing it.
it was approximately one metre away from her feet .i was four metres i guess.
should i?
then i just ran after the ball wanting so much to make her lose possession of the ball.and just rather hit it out than let her have it.
er so i just banged into her and hit the ball, and the ball went into the goal. lucky pos i am.
and before that xiaoming said we had one last goal to score before trg ends.
wow,sometimes im awed by my incredulous luck.
oyeah and today xiaoming asked for a volunteer cos he wanted to teach us some dfending stuff. and because my senior was blind sighted,she chose me, the national player. HAHA jkjk and in the end i couldnt even touch the ball because xiaoming was like using his arm to REALLY SHIELD ME IN A DAMN ZAI X 10000 WAY. and the force on my right shoulder was like, hmm not a lot; like uh 1000000000000000000000000000000000000 N.
i didnt know guys are that hiong. only that lirays normal hitting can make us fall over.
haha i dont think ill ever volunteer again, unless i stick needles under my sleeves/wear spikes under my sleeves/paste a dagger in my arm/put one of those electric-shock gadgets under my sleeve/
okay i think im exaggerrating like a piece of shit, but i really never knew it was so rough. cant imagine what xiao ming would do in a real game, uh, how about he uses 4.86x 10 ^36N instead of 1.0x10^36N ?wow, i would fly.


yeah but the past few days ive been really sian,
sighs. including today.
well yeah soccer is damn fun, in terms of the sport , but till now, i still cannot quite be my true self in front of the people there,
so i end up being a bit of a loner sometimes. i seldom talk a lot or whatever. and sometimes im quite afraid that the seniors think im acting cute or what, guess i just think too much.
oyeah now im trying to join two ccas hockey and soccer.
i really cannot give up either one, i cannot give up the people in hockey because i really like the j1 teammates. i feel so comfortable around people like dolly and suenli and my dustbin!
and i cant give up soccer because i love it.

if you think its like some er, joke or something i will just get over in three months.
just go check my pri school autograph book, it says under my hobbies and interests besides science, badminton and soccer,
so yep.
im confident ill love it for a long time to come,even though i very much have no ballers' touch HAHAHAHA
i damn afraid people will thin that im trying to be cool or act pro by taking to sports ccas.
thats why everytime friends ask what cca are you in, ill be very proud of my answer but at the same time, worried.
sighs nvm, this is just another one of my moody posts.

anyw im in the same class as piangs! one of the happiest things that ever occurred thus far in 2008/
hope i wont be extra when i join the class next week or whatever.
though i still hang out with a02 most of the time, i still feel slightly stifled. maybe because weiwen valerie and siying arent there to support my lame crap.
i realise that the only time i can do homework and catch up on maths and econs is during the weekends.
im only at partial fractions so far, sighs guess its back to my all copy no practice days that resulted in me failing amaths last time.
well im sure there a re many people who are slacking their asses off too, but theyre smart and im not.
tmr i have hockey!
cant wait to volunteer to be the defender again!
damned i have chem tmr.
my first lesson.
i think ill just be apos.
omg yeah today the maths lecturer who is one seat away from me, caught me sleeping, i thought her couldnt see me cos i tried to use the head of the person in front of me to shield me, but i think the person moved. aiya mmmm. maths makes me mad.

on sunday, i asked God not to place me in a class which is really bonded, and not to place e in amanda or niangs or lirays class. and he palced me in an unknown class with piangs.
so tonight im going ask if i can wake up tomorrow, as someone highly gifted, who can sleep during lessons and still score straight as.
and be the surgeon that i want to be so much.

its childish, but yeah.
im just a lazy piece of shit.