well, i guess i really need to blog. because just now, when i was about to sit down and do some chemistry, wtf, the envelopes, that retrench box , the big sheet of class rules,...
omg, i feel like something is pressing me.

anyway today was graduation, didnt really feel much UNTIL, i hugged glh and lwf, my lips were already trembling so i struggled to hold back the tears. zzz, hurriedly hid behind xinran, thats called smart, eh what the hell do you expect, iq 2000units and eq 2001 untis...
yeah... walked down. and wow, like a burst open flood gate,...
anyway i didnt dare to see what i got, well, eventually jade saw it for me, and wtf.
it was uber disappointing.
.
nvm, forget it. theres one last chance. yeah birdflu, theres one last chance for people like us, to stretch out our hands and reach for the sky.
...lagged in school, went to take a picture with my yqfc!
after which we went to vivo to eat pastamania.
omg, it will be the first and last time i eat there, just like how it was my first and last time eating in subway way back in july.
after that we went to west coast.
damn f fun!!!!! we had this lame telematch, and well, i didnt know why the black order lost to noahs clan,...
must be thomas slowing us down... grrr.
sorry im biased towards him.
yep.
and huimin introduced us to the spin spin thing. DAMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN COOL DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMM NNNN EXCITING, DAMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN SHIOOOOOOOOOOOK!.
tmd! -> my new short form for ta ma de!
its like as cool as me?
fyi, my cool factor is 1999
.
lameo.
i was reading those letters i asked those special few people to write, and its really touching, i feel so happy to know that well, i made a difference one way or another. i feel so loved, that feeling of bliss could jolly well be better than how i would feel when i get a marriage proposal next time, sighs, i t hink ill run away from the proposal.. stupid phobia.
anyw, thanks to the ten plus people whom i gave the air mail envelope too,

so the day ended with a smile,
when mdm chia wrote us a message that was flashed infront of the whole school 2b05
when i saw the people in my class cry, when doro gave me that sweet little note,
when i see the smiles on your faces
when i couldnt sing the last school song properly or i would cry
when i sang the natioanl song loudly, when i gave all the photos out to my beloved friends,
when i typed beautiful long messages for those who asked me to
when fourbidden did a group hug
when i spun with huimin on the spin spin thingy
when i looked across the table at pastamanie and realised how many pals i have
when i read those letters and felt remembered, cherished, loved
when the juniors call us
when i was hugged and went to hug
when i exchanged knowing glances withmaochi and miamia and moomoo.
when erniang fooled around.
when huimin and i spun,
i really wished we were spinning the wheel of time backwards.
well, i could wait another four years for today,
and i totally dread college life now. i dont want to go to junior college, its like i saw those acjc people, and this ominous feeling came over me.
so this is how the last stage of cancer feels like,
the unbearable pain churns within;
incurable, inevitable, unstoppable.

ello rv,
i siad this during secondary two, gonna say it again,
im happy that i had you at all.


this week. sighs. really the last week of my life as an rv student in rv. fuck la.
it really hurts to know that, three more days, and youre no longer the chairperson of 4b.
no longer and official member or rv athletics, and you can never EVER see aman qimin piangs on your right and shibin on you left.
you wont be in the same class as moo jan, nor hm niang liray.....
cant look out of the balcony and just know that pearlyn eunice leena yitong eq... are opposite.
amanda just reminded me t hat tmr is llm's last lesson. friday will be hi mr ng and guo lanhuas last lesson. omg im gonna nvm.
it passes
so very quickly.
it doesnt wait.
this is the week that i dreaded most in my life i guess.
and its hear. so here i am living the most dreadful week of my life.
i really know know whats gonna become of me on wednesday, that feeling's like gonna totally. suck.
wth la, i think my vocabs so f limited that the only word i can use now is fk.
i hate this week i hate next wednesday...
i really dontknow how to organise twobee outing or whatever after this week.
so this is how the fourth stage of cancer feels like.
later im gonna write norines lil autograph book.
wtf la.
i really am gonna hug my ng and cry....
andf that will be t he second and last time i can even touch him!!!!!!
okay sounds sick but who cares./.';lds'ad;as'd'sald
f la, i dontknow how im gonna say the speech if i cant even take the misery now.