i shant rmb your fking birthday

melissa stella piangs yiqian nono yitong fuck my brother roston fucker
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sorry
sorry
just fuck you


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ello
people
havent been blooging in awhile
bet you miss me to cheese bits!
okay jkjk
anyway today was a slacky day
but anyw i think im starting to feel the exam pressure.
yep
during assembly they show us pics of the lower sec
cant they dismiss us early
and spare us the agony of UGH thinking of our previous classes and how much fun we had without the olevels
when i saw the twob class this year, sighs, i just see OUR pictures instead of theirs.
a bit moronic of me but nvm
oyeah and today the captains handed over their rings
i think the sec fours look really old there.
sighs
wonder if i look that old
yeah i guess so
because waimin said i looked much younger in the perth pics
weeps*
anyway todays lunch was fun because we had this new way of deciding what to eat heh
damn cool@
just like me
anyw after school while walking to the staffroom to find hi mr ng
i saw jasmine and yeah i suddenly feel like hugging her.
lol
after i did, i really felt like crying
its like kissing four years goodbye
gone just like that
i have three more months to live
feels like i have cancer
anyw recently when i take in class. short naps.
i realise i make a dream almost every time
sighs.
its like for ten minutes i really just drift off and imagine myself somewhere else.
is it because i want to run away from all this shit too muchthat i lose control
dunno
anyway now i wish that i can eat grilled fish everyday
the grilled fish at school rocksdsmflksdflkjklsdfj kldsjflk jd ljfds
oyeah yesterday i went home with piangs aman pwee mojo niang and moo
sighs we had a ball of a time
dammit its been awhile since i laughed that hard and disgraced myself in public. but who cares./
okay jkj'
there was this moment i saw pwee mojo ninag and moos faces across me
and i wondered.
oh how much i miss going home with yall and how much i will miss going home with yall

z
nobody really cares about anyone now
just now i was cutting and orange and i wondered again
nah nvm
wondered why i was so relaxed.
behind that cheerful facade, i think i am actually worrying a lot.
but then again, i do nothing about it.
push me please