i remember what i wanted to say.
the other day i saw some paramedics attending to a guy.he seemed to have convulsions.
uh anyway thats not the main point.
this is.
if i cant be a doctor, i guess ill be happy being a paramedic.
anyway i happened to look through all the cards iron twelve sent to each other, the postcards that piangs and i kept writing to each other and the christmas cards.
i saw the picture we took at nationals back in 2005.
everyone was showing teeth, but if you look at the photos we take now, not everyone is.
maybe im thinking too much but what happened to those smiles?
what are we all guilty of hiding behind those sealed lips now?
why as we grow older we no longer embrace each other like we used to?
why do we repel from training?
why cant we give it all weve got?
ok nvm.
i feel as if i have cancer now.
i feel as if i have only 6 months to live.

and yet, im not making full use of it.
i saw the pictures that shibin and i took way back in sec 2.
we always cam whored.
the good ol' days.
or xiang dang nian i always say.

i cant imagine myself in jc,
i cant imagine walking out of the classroom and not seeing shibin and qimin; cant imagine looking down and not seeing xiaoxis back view.
i cant imagine not having piangs and aman greeting me at my table almost every morn.
i cant imagine saying hi to another maths teacher other than mr ng
i cant imagine turning around and not seeing moo and niang
i cant imagine no one slapping my shoulders besides leena
i cant imagine anyone with 3 unique styles of clapping besides eq
i cant imagine anyone as on as nono
i cant imagine anyone is does hw as slowly as me besides jan
i cant imagine someone as girly as chrislyn
i cant imagine

and these are just some.
i cant imagine not seeing the same ol' expression on jos face when i didnt change my shoes.
neither can i imagine myself telling someone else not to use their hp so openly becase my friend your senior is the president. right karen?

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