todays chinese devoured 2% of my brain cells . (which is approximately the number of brains cells you can find in an average human) thanks to my amazingly high iq of 222, i only lost two iq units. however, unfortunately or fortunately. i am STILL a universal genius, just that my iq is 220. sighs.

okay enough of the bull.
before the geography test, i practically crammed my brain with as much last minute info as possible because i realised that most of the parts on population didnt seem to enter my mind last night.
so freaking fished up that i nearly became a dogfish.(not cat because i dont exactly like them)
anyw emily just did her usual exam stretches with huatty and now even enqi.
didnt memorise the hydrograph and hence knew nuts about how to answer the question.
anyw after the test, i had six senses instead of five.
because of the sense of accomplishment i felt.

went to chomp at je with the As. i didnt have much of an appetite, but i ordered pork rib soup which turned out to be nothing compared to BEACH ROAD PORK RIB SOUPJKLSAJDKLAJSDKLAJKDASDASLDJALKDJKAL.
laughed a lot, as usual.
discussed our sec4 A outing on wednesday for the third time.
had a pretty thorough discussion on BGR.
didnt have much constructive comments because ive never experienced one.
anyw jie ge told me the topics for hist.
and again, i felt so fished up inside that i nearly had fishes in my tummy.

thanks to prolonged period of napping during history lessons, i know nuts about anything except the tsar.which was not going to be tested,
figured i had no time. its not as if i dont want to study.
i want good grades. dont you know that feeling you get when before a major exam, someone come up to you and asks you loads of questions, knowing you can answer them all.
when was the last time that ever happened to me, sometimes im sick and tired of being looked down on. somethings happen to me but i rarely tell anyone how i feel.
i want the motivation. the motivation to read from day to night without taking a nap, without checking my phone for any messages, without watching tv, without going online. and without walking to and fro in the kitchen searching for food.
this physics exam will be the first one in 3 years that i didnt read through the notes at the week before. this time, i have three god damned days. okay. 1.5 because i have to study biology.
it will also be last.
as i ponder over whether or not to call it quits for the coming history test, i will still read through it tonight during commercial breaks from 10 to 12 as i soak up supernatural and survivor.
so many things, so little time, will be an understatement for this weekend.
but then again, i brought it upon myself.
i want my confidence, my self-esteem, and my motivation back.