carrots rotted at senny today!
sounds as if sentosa is my home heh.
calling it so affectionately nvm.
anyway the mosquito bite on my thigh is damn itchy.
we played a lot.
and i wonder where we will all be one year from now. sighs hah! shant talk about it.
zuah
theres trg tmr
better not be late haha
i love carrots
happy birthday to piangs hiongy ningy nono and jiege!


today we went to the ib open house at acsi
they talked a lot.
i liked it.
however, upon realising that the curriculum was very rigorous, i began to wallow in self-doubt, as usual/.
heh
sighs dont really know what to say, just that the school fees cost a bomb.
so im working towards the scholarship.
anyones eligible as long as they get a 9 and below for os.
raw score. heh
ERHEM I MEAN ITS NOT MUCH OF A PROBLEM TO ME LA, BECAUSE IM ACTUALLY EXPECTING *COUGHS* ERHEM A 1.
yeah. so now i have a goal.
we were laughing about how we can crack hokkien jokes that no one would understand.heh.
and i was thinking if liray says his sianjipuah sianjidiao slogan, he would also leave everyone dumbfounded.
and if guzheng goes there, .
we also laughed at the names of the canteen stalls.
erps.
yeah
SISTER ACT 3
seems like some kind of play

MAMAMIA
reminds me of a maid from some drama serial on channel eight eons ago.

FRUITI TUTTI
thats what i named one my barbie doll stalls, if i didnt remember wrongly

THE BEAN THING
why dont they just name it THE THING.

JUST LIKE MEE
if still dont know its a noodle store, you should just uh, .

i think sister act three is the funniest.
i had a fun time laughing, but somehow, i still reverted to my moody self after a while.
heh.
improvement see!
elsieong volunteered to sponsor my perth trip if i get a sub ten for os.
heh a very yummy incentive indeed.


yesterday, i napped at 430 and set my alarms at 7. but didnt woke up till 8am today
i guess i was too tired. too tired from all the shit.
dont know what is bugging me actually.
maybe i was just dreaming about things that werent there, thinking of problems that didnt exist.
i had three major dreams yesterday, and somehow, they merged forming one continuous long dream.i dreamt that i was running a race at turf city in the night.
then after awhile, i realised that vivocity and some mrt was part of the race route.'als; as
we had to run up stairs, down stairs
i was following the pace of the only girl in front of me. funny, yes, but i was second, and i felt as if i was flying.
heh.
dreams, reflect your desires?
the first girl and turned at the wrong place, the whole pact followed us. after we realised we were wrong and wanted to run around, the whole pact was in front of us, and there seemed to be many obstacles.somehow we ended up buying something at the supermarket. i was so worried, i asked if we should run and try to lead again, she said something like it was impossible. and i said that this isnt what we are supposed to do.
she said as long as we complete the race its fine.
and i foolishly agreed.
we met her male friend later on.
he was a very tall person with a sweeping fringe.


the last few days were horrendous.
dont know if it is just pms or what.
no one really made me laugh very hard.
just feel ultimately bored.
zzzzzz
talk a bit to hi mr ng today.
when i told him how i have not interest in amaths, i already want to hug him as if his my grandpa and cry.
z
nvm, shant talk too much.
writing the above sentence already -.
zz ya.
have you ever wondered if erasing someone from your memory would make you feel better?
i think it does.
i keep replaying stolen.
nvm, its not my type to be mushy and all lovey-dovey.
i love acting cool!
im an egoistic bastard, i have to admit.
i hope tomorrow will be a sunny yellow banana sunday.
i wish for something fine to happen/
to brighten up my day
everythings gonna be fine.
if you lose your ez link, make a new one;
if you are too lazy, get up and work;
if you are too sleepy, get some sleep;
if you are -sick, eat medicine;
if you are too lame, grow a new leg;
if you are want to play badminton, play badminton;
if you want to play soccer, play soccer;
if you need to laugh, tickle yourself
HA ha ha


today is like the worst day of this year.
i have like shit loads of stuff to do and think about
twobee outing
collect money for athletics bbq
4bidden outing
notice board
chem hw
bio hw
phy hw
MAKE A FKING NEW EZ LINK CARD COS I LOST MINE
think of a way to get money from elsieong and rennielim to pay for loss.
report loss of card,
buy new wallet.
deposit all my antique notes into my bank account and freeze my bank account so that i wont over spend and jeopardise my already critical financial situation.
1500m event.
pack my notes to get ready to start studying.
acsi ib open house
dsa?
f loads of stuff, f little time
sdjlk j kdns ,mddddddn ahjaslkjdhljasdaljsdaksljdkldjklasjas
im like waiting for the bloodly washing machine to be done so that i can bathe and im as stinky as a snail
i am so frustrated that my mouth remains closed all the time.
my mouth is uh 0.2 open most of the time



f today f today
paksdl asj dlkajdlasdm ,.znclkhyes urfhx
DEfvte w
g0vhj0n0k,47 il. n.


today i left school at ten for dental appointment again. MUAHAHA.
at beach road.
FORTUNATELY, the nurse told me that the dentist was 0.5h late.
i was so happy i practically ran out of the clinic and out of concourse to the shop houses!
my goal was to find the shop that peishi told me about.
and i found it.
it was so early in the morning. and people certainly wouldnt expect some female juvenile scurrying here and there
and the streets were pretty lonely.
i even found arab street and kampong glam. HEH THE EXACT PLACE WHERE WE WENT FOR EXCURSION LAST YEAR.
damn cool right B)
erhem, fyi, i made use of my extrasensory perception (sixth sense) and managed to find the shop with no difficulty at all.!HEH!
but it was closed.jlkjkljdlkadj oj.,mf. zxvcx
anyway i bought too very mini voodoo dolls.
god knows for who.
i dont know either. they were cute and cheap!
sighs.
that special feeling i get whenever i walk through chinatown, beachroad, ill never forget!
anyway i went back to the clinic and i was told that the dentist would arrive in another 0.5h time. WTF! l; ksapdkl;askdas
WHEN I THINK BACK NOW, I SERIOUSLY SHOULDVE READ MY AMATHS EX BOOK INSTEAD OF READING MAGS.HI MR NG!
sighs, anyw today was pretty sian.
totally moodless.


yesterday irontwelve 0.5 or rather iron6 went shopping heh.
okay the above sentence was actually super redundant.
nvm, hiongy, nono, aman, jan, piangs and i went shopping at bugis street.
janice and i reached first, at around 11 so we decided to help the storekeepers open their stalls. jkjk
we scoured like three quarts of the place.
it was really fun for me, i didnt expect it to be THAT cool when you help people choose clothes and people help you choose clothes. everyone got what they wanted, of course, unless you consider burning a hole in our pocketss as something we wanted.heh
it was certainly a memorable birthday for piangs.
okay that sounds like a composition ending.

last year we sneaked in to watch davinci code during paings bday. and we ended up being detectives. sighs it seemed like just ytd.
imagine if a uear was a day.
then your life would be a mere hundred days.
how short is that.
life feels short but it is long in fact ZZZZZZZZZZ
why is piangs's baday always so fun.
next year it wont. kl;askd;la

sighs, im going to sew up the hole that i burnt in my pocket ytd. see you soon.
or, will i ever?


i would be the first to die.
the most number of conflicts .
when i look back
not yours but mine.

if i hadnt ...,
if i had ...,
..... . .. the root of all evil.
im sure ... .. agree.
because ... .. know it.

it was me all the while.


theres something in my oesophagus. makes me want to puke but yet im not able to.
i feel like amputating the upper half of my body now.
sdj sjadkdladalks j dla
its really like sighs. damn difficult for me to breathe.
anyway.
today was the only paper i cried for during midyears.
dont want to say how i screwed the entire thing with my screwdriver because i really really didnt see it coming.
do you know the feeling when you pin all your hopes on something and it just comes crashing back at you?
i think everybody does.
now im pinning all my hopes on geography, and if it really ... i dont know what i'll do. cant do much too.
\
emily's midyear resolutions:
1) not to sleep during any humanities lesson unless there really is a need to.(okay maybe i should exclude that part)
2)attend amaths remedial wholeheartedly; if i ever have to.
3)never ever study last minute for physics.
4)love amaths for who it is and not because of mr ng. HI MR NG!
5)sighs i dontknow what else. i just know i feel like hitting my chest hard to get that bitch out of my throat asap.

get the best progress award after prelims; from zero to hero.


anyway this morning i played badminton with miamia! heh its been a long time!
and after pe, i was one of the last to reach class.
when i reached the class, i popped my head in and i saw HI MR NG!
omfg, i really smiled very very happily, it was pure joy!
santa ng was happy to see me too!(i guess heh)
anyway yeah had health checkup and wth la, yyc was full of crap but its damn funny. and liray peaked during the check up, in terms of humour level.
AND OYEAH NICHOLAS AND ABEL PANGSEHED ME AND JANICE!
they are no longer in front of us, so we have no one to whack anymore.
heh actually it was no one's fault , just that i enjoy harping on it. heh.
during chem, moo, norine, huatty gunyn and i were stuck at the health check up block because we were cowards. afraid to be struck by lightning.
lol.
anyway when i went the the staffroom to take umbrellas, HI MR NG yeah i saw mr ng! he was with a group of other girls:( so i was too shy to say hi loudly.
but he talked to me!kwdl;ad;asjdlj dufoijmdfz./
weet weet
he asked me how was i!s;d'asdkadka;ldkas
and he said i looked good!las'kdskas
heh
of course, i look damn cool with the wet look .B)
anyw i am trying to sneeze ahap(<_ okay anyone who can guess this correctly gets a piece of seaweed from me. anyw did i tell you i just ate seaweed. then after that i slept, then when i woke up, the bitch appeared in my throat. so maybe its the seaweeds fault. )
shit i think i wrote a lot of uh. ya in the bracket.
okay 1215. almost time for rostonlim to use the com.
anyw, on saturday i want to ask the baby carrots if they wanna play catching in school after training with papa and mama carrots!
EH OR IS IT BECAUSE BITCHUAN PUT A FREAKING CURSE ON ME.


today i woke up at five as usual but i decided to wake up at 8 then reach school at nine plus because i felt sick.
at 8, i lagged in bed till eight then guolanhua called me, she told me not to come. heh so i slept till five. damn cool right, i slept for like 16 hours?
anyway, aman told me that ningxin told her that when mr ng knew i was absent, he said no wonder the class so quiet. HI MR NG. okay maybe he prefers it to be quiet, but ill be back to irritate him tomorrow. i missed pe today, sian.
elsieong sucks . if you are so concerned about how tired you are, then just fuck off man, dont even bother about asking me to go to the doc alone.
as if im not tired.
if you are so fucked up with having to wake up in the middle of the night if i have a fever, then dont even give birth in the first place/


what a day
i came to school in the wee hours of the morning, as usual heh. i like the feeling of owning the school
anyway it rained as i stepped through the gates, couldn't get back to class because i had to take diary. so i decided to make the canteen table my bed while waiting for the rain to stop. anyway, i loved that weather B)
i really just rested my head on the table for a good 0.5 hours or so.
it felt great. first time i ever did that in four years.
felt as though i owned the canteen. heh
anyway i woke up when they played the damned radio.
chinese was first. i got 58 overall. pretty much expected it.(because i'm pretty)
i think i cracked that lame joke before. okay never mind
after that, HI MR NG
yeah. i failed amaths.
didnt really expected this. i guess i was too confident that my graphs could get me pass this hurdle.
sighs. the blanks on the entire ln questions and trigometry really cost me a lot of marks. nah never mind, i really know i deserve it.
so i have no right to feel sad, sighs, okay i did feel a tinge of guilt.
pulled my average down shit loads. hi mr ng. sighs
after lunch we had english. 67 overall. quite disappointed.i should seriously read jodi picoult.
!
i feel that my composition is very much of primary school standard. sighs
anyway. chia kelli's son ernest chia played truant today so dlim came to take us.
i like him.
didnt expect myself to.
heh
first time in eons i paid 90% attention to hist/social stud lessons . not full attention because i noticed i stoned a couple of times at dlim's pants, dorothy's chair, nicholas's table etc.yeah i couldnt wait for class photo taking ,my mind just drifted off.
i told lanhua and foongjie about my super-cool-last-minute-just-want-to-be-done-with-it idea which i thought of last night while stoning after jiamin text me. wind was so cute! and flower kept caressing my hand after the shoot.she seemed as if she had a wonderful time taking the photo. HEE
when i smiled my mouth kept twitching because the next class was there and i ccouldnt keep a straight face. ya im shy !so i guess that will make four retarded class photos in four years.zaaaaah
went back to class for geography with btan
and after geography, CCA PHOTOTAKING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
while waiting for like a gazillion years for our turn, liray and i came up with this combo xiongxiong gesture we would do whenever we feel like. haha
damn f funny!
yeah woopee
i think the photographer likes me because when he showed a stern face when hiongy was in the process of murdering aman, i slapped amans thigh and flashed a super wide smile at him. then he grinned cheekily. okay im exaggerating. he just grinned.hi mr ng.
then after that, discussed our events. f disorganised this years that im totally itching to find someone to blame.
will it be
a) bitchuan(silent 't')- the red/orange lover
b)poison ivy-the not-so-posionous-after-all teacher
or
c) book ek soo ben-the whom i suspected, had a haircut at QB house.

take your pick B)
anyway dont know what the heaven liray did but it was f funny.
okay so aman and i are separated.
i got what i wanted. 1500m with leelee. but is zero play time with piangs, nono, ningy, moomoo, bbeq and mojo worth it?
i dont know.
i just know i will make that decision. and i made it.
fyi, i had a choice in the first place because im just bother line, fifth in both trials, a little good, but not good enough. heh never mind.
im with jan, hiongy karen and liray!
todays photo taking was a very nostalgic moment.
okay actually, every time i see the A's, i feel nostalgic.
anyway, this year i sat in the front row! god damn it! bbeq and i were so glad that we could sit in the front row because we were treasurers!
bbeq nearly broke into fits ! okay jkjk
assaddadfjlknfd


ohman i came on again because i'm so desperate for my beautiful sunday that i locked myself in the study room and blasted the song
i dont think ill have anymore beautiful sundays, because my dad will be home and ill never be alone.
unless i go to chinatown!
heh okay i'll do just that next sunday, unless of course we go out!(and maybe i cant wake up early enough)


adding on again. sighs the song is so beautiful.
when i close my eyes and blast the music, i feel myself melting sighs!

adding on.
sighs today i wanted to stay home and enjoy my beautiful sunday.
but went out instead. i didnt regret though.
just that i missed extreme makeover home edition.
i wanted to go to Chinatown at eleven then reach home by three to catch the show. that was my initial plan, i wanted to be alone and clear my thoughts. rid myself of worries.
missed the shop houses and that art shop!
want to go there desperately. maybe someday this week after school.
this song keeps ringing in my head. the third video, go hear! its sung by keane but i prefer the version sung by lifehouse heh

KEANE LYRICS

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I've been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I'm getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you're gonna let me in
I'm getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don't we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
So why don't we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don't we go
Somewhere only we know?

darn meaningful, it makes me wanna cry heh okay im no crybaby. im cool



TODAY WAS SUP FUN!
haha
jan liray aman ningy and i went to do physics assignment at national library. liray was the only slut because sikiat dad couldnt make it.
he must be busy spending mothers' day with my mum
i was pretty late(because im pretty) OKAY JK JK.
heh. later ningy and aman came and we ate lunch at macdonalds and did our assignment.
AND NINGY WAS LATE BECAUSE SHE THOUGHT IT WAS JE LIBRARY. SO SHE WENT TO JE.
damn funny because ningy kept asking me where i am and we keep arranging to meet at the counters but couldnt find each other. HEH.
anyway at macdonalds
\








okay nvm.
anyw after that liray went for piano.
and the rest of us went to shop. we all tried on prom dresses!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
damn cool (only me)
HEH jkjk. its not about whether we looked nice or not because they all looked beautiful to me B)
its just freak ass fun.
i like doing stuff like this. and i really had a hard time finding someone to do it with.
guess i dont need someone anymore, i have irontwelve.
on the way home, i told them that this year, we all really became inseparable.
and me and aman did something super cool today. thanks to witty me!
heh
friends
many came and went
some came and stayed.
you all know who you are. because when you read this, you wont ask yourself, am one of them?
you will tell yourself, HEY THATS ME!
heh
get well soon, everyone.
and if you need me, just call 999.
amazingly, after i tendered resignation at the police academy last year, they still divert their emergency calls to my hp.
yeah.
okay serious, you know what i mean.


i forgot to add that i was really happy when i bought yitongs, lirays and elsieongs presents
i already have it planned out. during recess on monday, we will empty lirays old pencil case and fit his stuff into the new one. heh.


OH FINALLY THE NEW POST PAGE IS WOKRING
I CAME ON THRICE JUST TO SO I COULD BLOG!

the past week was well, i dont exactly know how to describe it. i was not especially happy and neither was i exceptionally sad. i was just -.
sighs. actually its better to know if you're super high or amazingly low than to not know how you are feeling.
anyways, the best moment was when during the athletics outing liray made me laugh like hell on the escalator.
and well, the worst moment was when i was totally at a lost of what to do to help my good friend and also ... sighs shan't elaborate. and cant elaborate.only you understand. darn it sucks to hold back.
most of the time, i could easily hide unhappiness for someone to be happy.
but then, it seemed like the hardest thing i could ever do, harder that a physics test, harder than not saying hi to mr ng.
sighs, im listening to nerina pallot's sophia, and the song really makes me want to cry heh
it feels constipated, to not be able to speak my mind.
and weird enough, i had constipation for the past three days.!
friday wasnt a fine day, though both words start with an 'f'/
anyway this week was meaningful because i had the chance to help quite a few people.
but it also made me sad because i got to know their problems.

whatever happened was really fated sighs. im just darn happy i could do something for someone.
the last of you.
the sadness in your eyes.


yippee woohoo!
exams are officially over.
it unofficially end on monday for me heh
anyways i shall blog about a series of unfortunate events that happened between 8am and 10am today.
heh
-jaina gave out foolscap
-emilylim told deechong to take extra paper
-deechong already did.
-jaina expressed concern over some pupils not having enough foolscap while
-emilylim pondered whether or not to give away two of her eight pieces of foolscap
-jaina went to get paper
-exam officially started
-emilylim started the paper super relaxed
-she didnt bother speeding up because she knew that she wouldnt be able to do trigonometry, ln functions, differentiation.
-emilylim nearly wanted to go to NUH to amputate her nose.
-completed the first question and the first page as though it was ng haiguans lesson
-realised that there were quite a few graph questions

okay the above was a draft from yesterday.
anyw today, we got back emilymaths paper one.
and the whole of chemistry.
sighs
anyway. after school. realised hee was crying. so hee told me and haa whatever happened.
haa was quiet the whole while while i was busy trying to disinfect hee's mind of negative thoughts.heh
gee i felt something was wrong with haa so when we alighted, i asked haa if haa was okay then haa broke down. and god damn it i did not bring UHU glue.sighs.
anyw im so proud of myself for being the only one who did not cry!
heh i am
ultimate-fantastico-kamikaze test taker-limpei-maozedong-lazyass-morale booster-mightymarie-everlastingemily--hi mr ng-er,cant think of anymore-hi mr ng!-heroic hero!
okay anyw i realised i have yet to tear up the exam timetable

i'll be back;
i know you will;
you know i will?;
yes;
but you wont be here anymore right?:
i know you will be back;
yes,
only if i know you'll be here


sighs, really dont know what im doing now. its one plus am night before amaths test. okay morning of amaths test.
i really have absolutely no interest whatsoever in amaths. interest level is a negative numeral because i hate it in fact;
but i like mr ng. HI MR NG IF YOU ARE SEEING THIS!
anyw today i slept at six after some online shopping and a bath HEH.
told my dad to wake me at 7/
he woke me at 7, i told him five mins more. then i woke up myself at 8
did the entire topic on finding max and min pont in 1.5 hours. then while eating dads horfun at 10, i switched on the tv, and omfg. i didnt know csi was so interesting.
so i decided to finish watching it till 11
i hate trigonometry so i only bothered to remember how to draw t he curves. because drawing is fun.
shit my left eyelid keeps twitching now.
whats does it mean huh
extreme good luck. yeah!
hehe okay actaully i dontknow
but nvm.
dont know if i should continue my laggy and inefficient way of studying differentiation till morn and dont sleep, or go to sleep
sighs, maybe ill pick the latter because im so afraid i might fall asleep like i nearly did during biology mcq. and chinese compre

my left eye is twitching ugh!
and i feel like chopping my nose off.because it feels as if i have a mucus base volcano on my face; with a continuous outflow of you-know-what.

edit heh. decided to go sleep and mug on the train and in the morn.
sighs. cconfessions of a broken hearted lazyass AGAIN.
cant help being lazy.
oya and just now while stoning, i t hought about my attitude
apparently i a expecting myself to have maybe 45 minutes of time to stone and sleep tomorrow due to the vast amount of qs i wont be able to attempt.
why am i so selective
sighs.
why cant i put in as much effort for my maths as my sciences?
also for ss and history.
why am i able to set a record for yawning three times per page of the maths text book?
i bet its mental and not physical.
sighs.
i value freedom a lot, i realised. from this.

anyw, i thought of flunking. when i suddenly realised that this was MID YEARS. NOT CTESTS.
and getting a 20/100 will put my already low average even lower. wtf.
read desmy's rv amaths handbook by choy ban heng.
i read the introduction, not the content heh. cos there will more words there.
hee
he said that maths require commitment, constant practice and understanding.
i, the kamakazi amaths test-taker (as in kamakazi pilot, suicide pilot) had -inifinite commitment, 0 practice and maybe 5 for understanding
heh


i just realised that the hmmm... happy feeling i get whenever i see santa ng is a conditioned reflex!

A CONDITIONED REFLEX IS A REFLEX ACTION ACQUIRED FROM PAST EXPERIENCE OR LEARNING WHICH IS ORIGINALLY INEFFECTIVE IN PRODUCING THE RESPONSE.

&!
A reflex action is an IMMEDIATE response to a SPECIFIC STIMULUS(mr ng) without conscious control.

im left with one day and tonight to study physics.
sighs.
and 0.25 days each for biology and history.


todays chinese devoured 2% of my brain cells . (which is approximately the number of brains cells you can find in an average human) thanks to my amazingly high iq of 222, i only lost two iq units. however, unfortunately or fortunately. i am STILL a universal genius, just that my iq is 220. sighs.

okay enough of the bull.
before the geography test, i practically crammed my brain with as much last minute info as possible because i realised that most of the parts on population didnt seem to enter my mind last night.
so freaking fished up that i nearly became a dogfish.(not cat because i dont exactly like them)
anyw emily just did her usual exam stretches with huatty and now even enqi.
didnt memorise the hydrograph and hence knew nuts about how to answer the question.
anyw after the test, i had six senses instead of five.
because of the sense of accomplishment i felt.

went to chomp at je with the As. i didnt have much of an appetite, but i ordered pork rib soup which turned out to be nothing compared to BEACH ROAD PORK RIB SOUPJKLSAJDKLAJSDKLAJKDASDASLDJALKDJKAL.
laughed a lot, as usual.
discussed our sec4 A outing on wednesday for the third time.
had a pretty thorough discussion on BGR.
didnt have much constructive comments because ive never experienced one.
anyw jie ge told me the topics for hist.
and again, i felt so fished up inside that i nearly had fishes in my tummy.

thanks to prolonged period of napping during history lessons, i know nuts about anything except the tsar.which was not going to be tested,
figured i had no time. its not as if i dont want to study.
i want good grades. dont you know that feeling you get when before a major exam, someone come up to you and asks you loads of questions, knowing you can answer them all.
when was the last time that ever happened to me, sometimes im sick and tired of being looked down on. somethings happen to me but i rarely tell anyone how i feel.
i want the motivation. the motivation to read from day to night without taking a nap, without checking my phone for any messages, without watching tv, without going online. and without walking to and fro in the kitchen searching for food.
this physics exam will be the first one in 3 years that i didnt read through the notes at the week before. this time, i have three god damned days. okay. 1.5 because i have to study biology.
it will also be last.
as i ponder over whether or not to call it quits for the coming history test, i will still read through it tonight during commercial breaks from 10 to 12 as i soak up supernatural and survivor.
so many things, so little time, will be an understatement for this weekend.
but then again, i brought it upon myself.
i want my confidence, my self-esteem, and my motivation back.


http://www.stridegum.com/#Matts_Place

matt harding went to singapore!!!!!!!!1
omfg t he outtakes were damn funny. ESPECIALLY T HE MAN BOOB PART KJSDHKJSDHAKJDHAD
CAN YOU IMAGINE SANTA NG IN HIS PLACE




I dont mind where you come from
As long as you come to me
But I dont like illusions I cant see
Them clearly
I dont care, no I wouldn't dare
To fix the twist in you
You've shown me eventually what you'll do
I dont mind
I dont care
As long as you're here

[Chorus]

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's all the same

Hours slide and days go by
Till you decide to come
But in-between it always seems too long
Suddenly
But I have the skill, yeah
I have the will, to breath you in while I can
However long you stay is all that I am

I dont mind, I dont care
As long as you're here

Go ahead and tell me you'll leave again
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are
If you take me for everything
And do it all over again
It's always the same

Wrong or Right
Black or White
If I close my eyes
Its all the same

In my life
The compromise
I'll close my eyes
Its all the same

Go ahead say it
You're leaving
You'll just come back running
Holding your scarred heart in hand
It's all the same
And I'll take you for who you are now
If you take me for everything
Do it all over again
It's all the same


okay yay so i remembered my cbox username.
anyw i had another dream this morning. yeah morning.
i rmb cos when i woke up i fell asleep again. this time i rmbered every detail
it was a very sad dream.
i dreamt i was this woman. with a baby. i think i was either a single mom or a widow.
then i had to make a living. so i approached this bakery called "BAKERIES" the logo was just like gradenia's logo except the word was bakeries and not gardenia.
i practically begged the shopkeeper to give me some supplies to sell elsewhere. then i will bring back the profits and at the same time she will pay me for it.
i even asked if she had any banner so that people would trust the quality of the goods based on its reputation as being a proper stall. sighs. then she said i was smart. WOOPEE
haha
she searched for a banner but couldnt find one. instead she just found some black and white posters. zz and they looked like calvin and hobbes comic strips. lol
anyw i said erm nvm then do you have plastic bags to spare.
i will cut out the logo and stick them around. LOL
this ones very stupid.
z nvm anyw i dontknow why but i saw myself lying on some bed in some cottage with my baby beside me.& i was crying. lol
then i forgot what happened next. either i woke up, or i forgot what happened.