omfg today is damn f-ing fun
okay first in the morning we had flag day. and though it wasnt beri fruitful for me.
and i did a good deed! not the flag day. just sth else heehee.
and then i went to novena cos my mum said my grandpa doesnt have much time left.
yes im not beir close to my ahgong but when i say him with that oxygen bag like gasping for breath, i suddenly felt that the reason why i dont want him to die is because of the fact that i feel comforted to just know he existed , and is still existing
owell.
the moment i step into the ward beside his bed, my mother say he can hear and cant see cant talk cant move.
so she ask me to whisper in his ear. so i said
"hello gonggong, i am emily"
ye si know this sound spastic, but i bet he heard it.
that tiem his eyes were still closed.
ok so we went outside and stone.
i hate this kindof quiet family moments.
anyw suddenly everyone went to his ward again. so i went lor.
and this time his eyes were open.
and my godma and mum were crying until their eyes almost drop out.
i dont like to cry in front of them.
cos i bet my bro will think their fake. and anyw, i think i dont have to cry to show that im concerned.cos concern come sfrom the heart yar.
aiya then must wait for so long before the people clear from his bed then i can go closer.
then anyw m y fathe rask me wanna go home. so i ok lor. then my mum akls me go and whisper sth in his ear.
so i said "gong dont go"
its liek my godma and mum keep crying and saying" pa u go in peace and all that shit.
to put in a worse way. their waiting for him to die la.
i then dowan lor.
ok maybe they think his suffering.
if he want sto go then let him, but if he isnt. let it be.
its like the whole thing seems as tho their waiting for him to die. like wtphuck can.
and anyw i didnt go yet. cos my fathe rsay wiat for relative to go first. so in the process of waiting, i realised maybe ahgong coundlt understand eng. so when we left, i whispered and made sure my mom din hear.
i said it in hokkien
gong dont go yet.
hoho
and he's still alive now.WEE

then later i went hoem to sleep. and encountered one of the worst thunderstorms in my life.
and waloa i think im damned ph-ing brave can.
the thunder was super damned loud and i was woken form my nap. and i just lied in bed. still cna slp. the sky like gonna crack lor tamad ehaha
phuck my bro plus co. come home.
sheet period.
phuck i gtg bb
ok im still here turns out he didnt need the com
anyw in i was liek tossing and turnign in my bed. alone in my room. and i ddnt feel scared, just reminded of my ahgong. like does the thunderstrom mean anything related to him?

and later i went for the athletics dinner at gombak square f-ing fun,. we played polar bear and ctaching and gossiped:D
i love athl
once a carrot always a carrot