It's Difficult
by Sandy Morray
(Winston 12/29)

It's difficult for me to take initiative
I can't seem to bring myself to do it
I am egoistic
And i know that egoistic people
Feel that by being the one
To start clearing things up
Means surrendering and losing
And i never liked to lose

It's difficult to change how people think
When i tell her where she went wrong
She still things she's in the right
To assume that things are at its worst
To let things affect her too easily
I told her
You will be happier if you believe in everlasting happiness
even though there won't be

Sometimes people don't take my words seriously
Sometimes people don't understand my reason to do things
But i know
That by believing that they have a good reason not to
I will feel much comforted
All i ask for is you to respect me
As i respected your decisions
Mutual respect
Is it that difficult?

today taught me alot of things, abt how to act in emergencies. which is to grab hold of any resource near you. and do not waste time
i also learn that i don't like to work with her
cos we clash
she didnt keep her words
i also learnt that we shudnt let other things take hold os our emotions so easily and lose our temper on ppl ard us.
that is why im nto affected by whats happening at home
and qimin, if you think shes far worse off than me, lemme tell u exactly whats going to happen to me
actually today sucks. except from 1pm to ard 3.45pm
thats like 2 and a quarter hrs
the oni person that cna make me happe is myself
the only person that can make me strong is my souls cos i noe i am strong
considering i normally shed tears when i miss my fwens and when i watch titanic.
nabeh that time i watch titanic cry until so jia lat thanks to that song and the old couple holding hands inbed . i was howling when my papa came home then i cry and cry.