i am so phhhking sad now.
i am trying beri hard not to cry. cos my mum coming home liao.. if i hear the voice or see anyone from twobee, i cry like phk sheet. so heng maozhu nv pick up the phone just now... she porbably wanted to aks me play bball with cheltton and fwens.
i cant stand it. i realli need to go out and take a breather . maybe i'll remain quiet all day for tmr's trg.
wheneva im with cross ppl nw, i wished there were the maomaos. sori .
ytd we had individuals speeches and i felt so shuang yet sad aftr it,. shuang becos i manage to apologise to all the peopel i think i have offended, and confessed that i was arrogant.
and my maocake made my so phhking touched when she bowed and removed her rings aftr sayign she wanted to be an ordinary student. mk u rock.

then we had community singing during ms ong's lesson. man, i relaly appreciate her efforts for showing us a few of the ppt slides.
said that whnever a door closes for us, there will be another opened door that is waiting for us.
towards the end of the lesson we palyed songs and stood in a circle and sang our hearts out..
then i saw mk's compressed face, my heart ached. then the tsunami hit.
it hit everyone actually. ok, most ppl
then ms ong oso teared...

today was the phhkiest day of my life.. sori in case u are a sensitive reader and hate vulgarities, i normally use alot of these when im phhking sad. there.
i brought balloons for all the girls. haha little metalic ones i think theyare beri cute.. as for the boys, sori cos the balloons out of stock .oni left 21.. so, ya
in the car i was alrd starting to dread today.. and today was realli dreadful. worst day of my life.
ytd was most memorable.
i was inflating 21 balloons in the car and i was so phhkling happee to give them to my fwens..
cos i think its damned cute. liek when they see the balloon will think of me, cos im oso beir cute!!!!!
phhhk. my mum just came back and i feel like hugging her and crying..phhhk
nvm i shall stuff my self with baorui's damned phhkign yummy cupcake (which i ate four HAHA)
okay. towards the end of the day, tgl came in to do admin stuff for the last time.. then she called us out individualkly to comment on us.
she said she appreciated my efforts. really.
then i felt beri guilty cos i opposed her many times.
here's what she wrote in my report book n im realli flattered. cos its um, really too much.
"Emily is willing to take charge of given tasks with pride, drive and sheer determination. She can be dependered on to shoulder responsibilities as a Class Leader. Possessing an enquiry mind, she seeks clarification when the situation arises. Given her enthusiasm and self-confidence, she trained tirelessly for her running and field events to take part in the National Track and Field Competitions. She has proven to be selfless and passionate in leading the class in community service. "
i think she did her best to give every single one fo us good comments.
i appreciate it la, despite wateva she did before.
and then hile we were supposed to arrange the tables, we startign hugging each other and crying likephhk sheet. i hugged shike and i told her that i didn't noe i would miss her so much.
i hugged kaka and told her,"kaka i wanna kiss you" then i kissed her cheeks. and i really liek to kiss her!!!!i kissed her three time sto day if im not wrong. plus ytd is four!!! and four is a nice no!!!
okok.
then maoxi cried alot. then i see her cry then i cry even more jialadder. its liek i hug her an dmuttered some things then she sae she cnt hear what im saying cos i snorting too much.
mk cry until her eyes so puffy.we all went around hugging people.
then for the first tiem in two years, MAOZHU ACTUALLY WILLINGLY HUGGED ME AND FOR MANY TIMES.i just kpept snoprting and the snorts remained for a long time.
its was really really heart breaking. i could feel my heart being stabbed so many times. i hugged my sikiat papa. cos i finlly realised he was a nice person.. and i hugged kuanloong. ahha jiamin dun be scared, nth happenign he jsut my bro..
then he sae we cna still see each other in track and field.
i think he is the only guy inclass whom i dun really feel shy with. but ah loong ar, the poit is, track and field wun be until nxt yr june!
then tgl came and she hugged me!!!
tgl hugged me! shud i be honoured? well i dunno, she sae all the misunderstandings cleared up becos of my mum.. er.. got clear meh???
then just cry until ebri jialat. its the worst day of my life man. i kept askign myself, what am i gonna do? what will happen? cna i survive without u guys? and i keep on ending up with negative answers. i wanna go ice skating to vent my frustrations.

i am darn phhking proud to be a member of twobee. i am really happee cos i had a chance to be in twobee. and i'll miss each and everyone of you because im happy that i had you guys at all in the first place. missing sopmeone badly is the worst kinda feeling...
i really wish maoxi all the best in wateva she does. and don't ever forget me. i wanna hear u laff at mi jokes which are so stoopid that only u and i laff. and i wanna be able to laff at ur jokes which are also so stoopid that only i understand.
& i want you and i to be emcees for art fest next yr.
in the canteen before irene went, i hugged her and told her that we msut continue to play bball. and i will go to her house play oso.
and i wanted to cont locker rental with pearl cos jo made me realise that its the only thing that might keep us together.

when i came home, i felt really so empty inside me, i justw anan get hoem and get my beauty sleep and hug my pink milk bottle which contains the cellophane autographs, the onion rings, and the sweets. oya and i laminated the class list.
so i went home then on the way to the flat, i sang dnag ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui. then started to tear. its phhkign sad. and when i reached home, it was home alone.
then i started to stare at all twobee realted stuffs liek my pink bottle and mi laminated clas list.
memories.
then i wore my class tee to slp. and realised that my shoudler kena sunburn
theh i hugged my milk bottle to slp.
and i realised i was till clutchign it aftr two and half hrs of slp/
i love twobee.
i suddenly ant two chalets.
cos its so sucky w/o twobee and i cannto stand thsi phhy feelign anymore.
oay and aftr shc maochi and kaka and jiayee and i went to ask teachers to sign on our photographs.
heres what they wrote.. which i am dmaned proud of :

"All the best & best wishes.-ms VJ"(i was quite disappointed with this)
" lijie wrote that i was ke ai1!! omg im so proud.!!!
"dear emily, you are an adorable(yay!) deputy chairperson. keep up ur bubbly self!"- miss tan. i was really touched. haha
to ms tan -sori if iw as noisy during ur clas.
"dearest emily, all the best to you!"-miss oei!!!
and for my two most favourite ones...
from mdm chiachia and mr sohsoh. really touched me.
" Dear emily,
carry on smiling,
laughing and learning.
Hope to have you as my student next year.
Mr soh"
"dearest Emily, Your bright smile and cheerful deposition never fails to brighten up my day. Keep up You positive attitude and i look forward to seeing you around in school.
=) Mdm chia."
she realli wrote that smiley. i feel touched. and now i really enjoy smilign and bringing happiness and joy to everyone aropund me with my stoopid laffter and stoopid jokes.
tankew teachers.
i love you.