waaaa ~! ytd big thing happened.

ok so we had trg ytd. and it was not that bad la.

minus foot drills! yeah

the warmup is the SPECIAL warmup. which in this case means. more tiring then the usual four rounds ard the outer lane. and if the latter is already a killer, then this SPECIAL warmup ? u imagine. ok la. its not that bad..

hmmms then we did 10 power jump. then ltr is the workout. 800m need ta do 600m and 300m then jog 4 rounds on the outer lane then another 600m and 300m. when we were goin to attempt the second 600m, i bargained with pandan papa whether we could do only 1 600m w/o the 300m. and he agreed . but on one condition : must be under 2.05.
my previous set was 2.05.
fann din tink she cud do it. me too la. nx too.
then again, if we could do 8 sets of 800m FOR mr lee? why can't we complete one set of 600m for pandan papa?
perhaps, the problem wasn't with him. but with us. MIND OVER BODY. OUR bodies were above our minds for goodness sake.
i mean, yes, he has monstrous warmups that tire us out even before we work out. BUT. its after all EQUAIVALENT to mr lee's 8 sets . am i rite? i mean, if we did it before, why can we do it again? and if i did a 2.05 before, why can't i do it again? it was plain pressure. like somethings stopping us from doin what we CAN DO. external factors. there are many diff points of views to everything. and this is just what i think. i can nv say i have tried my best. but the worst thing that can happen to someone is not to realise their true potential. if i think i can do it, then i can do it. if i think i cannot do it, then i cannot do it. i can do it. under 2.05. cos i want to. i need to. i must and i will do it.

we charged of and i was right behind fann. when we passed pandan, he told me to follow. so i did.
but there was something inside me that reminds me that i do not just want to follow. i wanna overtake her.so i ran past her after the 400m mark. 200m more. you can do it, emily. i told miself that i cannot let neone overtake me, only i can overtake ppl. the curve was nice. i liek curves alot. the last 100m seemed liek eternity . i see the straight stretch ahead and i asked myself repeatedly: can you do it?
yes i can
yes i can
I CAN!
but i still slowed down newae.
i ran towards pandan papa. and as i was running, a questioned poped in my head
why am i running here now?
im running becos of mi love for it, and becos i wanna prove to myself that i can reach my ultimate limits and be the best that i can be. prove the world that this girl here can run.
run for RV.
and pandan's shouts broke my train of thoughts: 2 minutes! 201! 202! 203! 204!
and my face cringed
i crossed the line. 2.04 minutes.
under 2.05.
then again, i can do better.

ltr as pandan was abt to leava when trg ended, he smiled to me and asked : 205? 206?
i showed him four fingers and smiled.