Today, i realised a lot of things about my self, a lot.. I realised that i'm too sensitive and i also realised that i have a lot to complain about.. I realised i'm quite difficult to get along with. I don't know what i'm feeling, It's like there's this Giant vacumm cleaner sucking everything from me. I ain't as popular as i was last time.. but i can feel i'm more hardworking. I do my hw everyday after i come back from school and revise science every night... Issit just that the exams are nearing or issit me?? Ugh! I hate to think... I feel that i care a lot about status and i'm wishing for more bottom-line results.

I realised another thing---I am not suitable to be an SC. How can i ?? When after school i play crazily in classand fool around. In class, i crack lame jokes and most teachers erm.. sort of blacklisted me.. Someppl have told me to change. But if i change, can you imagine what will happen?? If one of my lao-po's piggy-back me after school, i'll refuse and i will just sit there and be the goody-two-shoes! Ugh! Can't think of that! I don't know what's happening in this bloody world sia... But there's no place for me, i just know... I seem to be complaining to myself about everyone!! Sort of like gossiping in my heart.... Ugh!! Depression!!!! Ugh!